Stories People Tell

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Courtney Khail “Stories People Tell” Original painting, 18”x24”, watercolors, inks, and graphite on paper. Part of the 2022 Sugar & Vice Collection

Courtney Khail Sugar & Vice In Process photo

Stories People Tell

My first sexual experience was the rumor you spread about me. First about a boy, then a teacher. Vile and malicious and calculated; hurtful for nothing but the sake of hurting.

I was only eleven years old.

Only eleven when I learned to distrust girlfriends. To build up walls, never to open up, to hide any vulnerabilities.

I was only eleven, but to this day I’m still haunted by the memory of how it feels walking into a room where you had just been the topic of conversation. The unnatural silence, the chill, the lack of eye contact.

While I may not have had the sex you claimed I did, I lost my innocence nonetheless.