Although a little late, I wanted to stop in and wish you all a wonderful 2013. A lot of times after the rush of the holidays and the midnight kisses have been exchanged, we can get into a funk because it seems like everything is "over." Your decorations are down (well maybe yours are, mine aren't and probably won't be for a few more days) the gifts are opened, the radio is back to playing what it did before Thanksgiving, and maybe for the most part your mailbox contains more bills than merriment. But I guess I'm just a little different- the new year excites me. It may have something to do with the fact my birthday is only two weeks away, but for the most part I think it's the possibilities. The adventures that we've yet to have, the memories yet to be made, and the lessons yet to be learned. I used to think I was a creature of habit who was afraid of change, but when I took a hard, long look at myself I realized that wasn't true. Well I definitely have anxiety at times, change excites me. They offer new beginnings, new challenges, and a way to grow. Hell, we moved to Colorado-away from amazing family and friends and what we knew- just because it felt right. And this past New Year's Eve, while I stood in a crowded house surrounded by new friends (and with thoughts of the new and old ones we weren't able to be with that night) I couldn't help but feel so incredibly blessed. I'm healthy, married to the most amazing man, have a wonderful family who always has my back even if they don't always understand my choices, have truly exceptional, loving, and supportive friends, live in paradise, and I get to create art for a living. I feel like the luckiest person.
So for this upcoming year- instead of resolutions like read more (though I do want to do that) I'm going to do my best to remember all that I have. I'm going to do my best to remember that change -even something that may look bad at first- offers new beginnings and new opportunities. I'm going to do my best to be kinder, more understanding, and more appreciative. I'm going to try to compare myself less to others and stop fixating on doing "what I'm supposed to do/what they are doing" and instead do what my heart tells me. I'm going live more in the moment and try to let go of anxiety that might be holding me back. This year is bringing a lot of changes (many this month) and to be completely honest I'm scared to death and so freaking excited at the same time- and I wouldn't change a thing.
On that note, Happy New Year you guys! I wish you all a year filled with happiness, health, and amazing memories (and would love to hear what you're looking forward to this year if you're inclined to share.)
